I’ve Been Holding Back. Not Anymore.

For a long time, I kept it light.

I wrote about nourishment.

About sun and soul, healing and softness, spirit and surrender.

All of it true.

All of it sacred.

But not all of it was the whole story.

Because the truth is — I’ve been holding back.

Not because I didn’t see deeper.

Not because I didn’t feel the fire.

But because I could feel, so clearly, that most people around me weren’t ready.

And I was afraid.

Afraid of the glazed-over eyes when I dropped a truth too sharp.

Afraid of the recoil when I spoke of darkness or distortion or control.

Afraid I’d lose people. Afraid I’d be seen as too much. Too intense. Too far gone.

So I made my voice gentler. Sweeter.

I let myself become palatable.

And when I did speak the raw truth — it was only with a select few.

A breadcrumb here. A flash of fire there.

Then I’d retreat again.

That version of me?

Gone. Burned. Shed.

This past year has been a slow, sometimes brutal, undoing of everything that kept me small.

People. Places. Habits.

And above all — the programming.

The cycles of trauma that kept me quiet.

The conditioning that told me to stay in the light, even when I was watching shadows feed on silence.

The parts of me that believed I had to choose between being safe and being real.

Not anymore.

I’m no longer here to keep things comfortable.

I’m not here to echo the empty, polished “spiritual” fluff that’s afraid of its own shadow.

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What I'm Here For Now

I’m here to expose the real poison:

The illusion of choice.

The weaponized light.

The synthetic healing.

The fake freedom that tricks people into thinking they’re awake — when they’re still being fed, watched, harvested, and lulled to sleep.

I'm here to talk about what’s beneath the trafficking, beneath the systems, beneath the surface of every sacred word that’s been hijacked.

I'm here to talk about:

• DNA as currency

• Energy as food

• The soul as the real battleground

• And how we’ve been trained — even in our spirituality — to bypass the very war we came here to end.

And yes, I’m still the one who speaks to the Source within you.I will always write from that place.

But I won’t leave the fire behind anymore.

Because God is in that fire, too.

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What’s Coming

If you’ve ever felt like there’s more going on than what we’re told — you’re right.

If you’ve sensed a deeper agenda hiding under all the noise — you’re not crazy.

And if you’ve been holding back your own voice because you thought no one would get it — I’m with you.

This is the beginning of a new chapter in my work.

There will be two voices from here on out:

• One symbolic, poetic, soul-deep

• One raw, real, unfiltered, unafraid

And both are me.

Welcome to the merge.

We don’t need more pretty truth.

We need the whole thing.

Light and shadow. Earth and sky. Fire and grace.

I’ve been holding back.

Not anymore.

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In courage and clarity,

Karen Di Gloria🔥

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